dae woong ahh :'(

Tsk..tsk..

Last weekend I went home with three missions. Renew my driving license, buy a pair of sport shoes, and bring back scouts' uniform. I failed all three. ''Slumber-ly'' I just hang out in my room and finished the final episode of Korean Drama "My Girlfriend is Nine-tailed Fox". The last two episodes were so much emotional because Dae- woong made wrong decision. Supposed, Dae-woong cannot return Mi Ho's bead until 100th day but he did it on 50th day. Thus she had mixed human chi-blood which was dangerous. Dae-woong was told by Dong Ju to leave her alone as to make her forget about becoming human and slowly decrease the toxic chi-blood. So Dae-woong decide to do it as told and not telling Mi Ho anything. What makes this more sad, Dae-woong just left her alone without knowing Mi Ho also decided to take out the bead and she continue dying painfully. Dae-woong should ask her first so that they can discuss and make decision together. Now Dae-woong just left her hoping she would recover but on the other side, she's just dying thinking that Dae-woong wont be back again and yes she decide to just DIE. Can somebody tell them whose gonna regret after this? BOTH okay! Grrr....  This is really a bad review.. Sigh

I'm thinking a lot these few days. And it was something I dont like. I felt unprotected and uncared. I wish for impossible things which makes me more hopeless. I wasnt any good in saying words and how I feel. But how I felt right now, just an empty smile.

u guys already own a blog,seriously??

Lets just forget how lazy I am to update this little blog. With all posting stuff that happen this last two months, surprisingly now its gonna open season again. School sessions I mean. Well, as for today Friday at this particular office hour, I figured out all my sisters had create their own blog. Seriously? When did you guys start having the thoughts to seriously have one? At early age of 13 eh? Seriously? Okay. The "seriously" word is annoyed because I type her repeatedly. Anyway, you guys don't have to answer me. But seriously?? haishh =.=''

Me, myself. Never thought to share this blabbering blog to my family. (cross fingers okay!) Not with anyone I know on this earth. (except encik hatimanes). Not a preferable choice because some of my entries are not suitable for them to read =.='' And yet my sis already became the follower. What?? Duhhhh~~!! Fine. Just read and swallow. Telan sendiri-sendiri okay. Jangan nge-ngade nak cerita sana sini pulak. Sekeh nanti huh! Yaya pulak, haishh~ Macam bole dibanggakan write in English. Still, this is not something I cherish. Maybe later I'll change my mind. Maybe post everyday life entry. Maybe just shut this off. Besides, all my post are not readable entries which were quit not readable for them of course. I'm lacking of words now cos I've got to go. 

Sisters: (sing like 'Santa is Coming to town' song)
You better watch out, you better watch out. 
You better not telling mom bout this blog
Cos your sister is coming home now~~


Ahem. Bye!

Killing me softly

Its the worst nightmare. I can picture the whole scene clearly until now. A heartbroken inside me, I never felt in my consciousness before. Harsh one. Its for another girl. Describes to be even better than me. It got into me really deep as I woke up crying. I can still feel it here in my chest and it cant be ride off. Its like a sudden wake up call. Like a whisper flying through my ears giving reminders. Hazard reminder. Dammit, screw you nightmare!!